This is an interesting venture for me. I am actually writing a blog about myself and about my views/opinions/about life! Whoda thunk? I don’t think many will read this, but I recently found that writing helps me get through my emotions and writing also just makes me feel good in general.
Today, I had an emotional conversation with a close friend of mine. In a way, I felt like I broke that unwritten code of trust today. She assures me I did not and she still trusts me like no other; however, I felt like a very bad person anyway and was truly hating myself. It was a bad moment, I suppose, and I hope I didn’t go into dangerous territory there. I do not think I did, and once I wiped my tears off my keyboard, I felt better, laughing once again. If there is one thing that kills me, it is not proving that I am a good friend. I always thought of myself as a good friend my whole life, even if others did not prove themselves back to me. This friend has proved to me she is such a best friend to me time and time again. So I felt like I had one point against me and she was still perfect. But in fact, in the end, it wasn’t as bad as all that and I was having a terrible moment, I suppose.
If there is one thing I need these days, it is the loyalty of my closest friends. In fact, my closest friends do not even live in the same country as me, sadly. It is a sad thing that your best friends are so far away (and I mean far—on the other side of the world!), but there’s nothing you can do about that. You never know who you will meet in your lifetime, and I never would have thought I’d have such a friendship with these girls from different parts of the world—they truly are like sisters to me. After spending so much time with them in both my country and in Mexico, I find that I need them more than ever, and we just became even closer after this trip :)
I am a big classic movie fan, but what is happening to my devotion? I have not been passionate about watching them lately. I feel it may come back to me eventually, but it is very strange. At the moment, I have a new addiction—a modern TV show (that is actually still on!) called Desperate Housewives. Anyone who knows me thinks it is strange, haha, because I am actually addicted to a modern show! I just adore this show—full of drama, comedy (which I adoooore), and I am just in love with the characters. I feel like they are my friends, too, and one common theme in this show is women’s friendship. I feel like I have such a friendship now, except I’m a few decades younger, haha. They are not friends living on the same street as me, but hey, it’s something and I find many similarities all time! It’s a happy, wonderful thing.
I have to make a roast chicken for dinner…. so I must stop now. Have a good day, anyone who reads this :)